That is what I found myself doing at this very late...or rather early hour in the kids room. Andin's school uniform sweater had two buttons pop off it weeks ago & he brought both the buttons home along with the sweater. ( Which really impressed me that he even had them, I think I would have lost at least one.) I kept telling him I'd sew them on & I just can't believe how busy life has been that I hadn't done that yet. It was the two middle buttons so he'd wear it without them! But finally tonight all the stars were aligned & somehow myself, the needle, the thread, the two buttons, & the sweater all were in one same room to get that job done. It took me about 2 minutes.
I sat there sewing, looking down at Andin's little sweater & across the room at the sleeping kids in their bunk beds. We've been so busy lately. We've been to school & back & to school & back so many times I don't even want to guess. We've had lots and lots of company stay with us. We've rushed to various practices, ate breakfast on the go, maybe heard the word 'hurry' a few too many times.
This really just isn't me. I am not the kind of mom that wants to rush off, I really am old school & enjoy my crafty lazy mornings of glueing and cutting with the kids. Cutting snowflakes, mixing pancake batter, rolling cookie dough out with a dusting of flour. But....these kids are growing. They just keep growing& growing. The markings on their door & the tupperware full of outgrown clothes in my garage tell me so. They are still young enough to love our fun craft time or baking on Sundays. Like the lifestyle ages 4 & 2 used to offer, but they (especially Andin) are also excited about baseball, tennis, cub scouts, & friends. I know that as their momma I need to grow with them, find the passion in what's now, & always let them fly up where they can reach. I need to let go of the 4 & the 2 stage. (I mean it was 4 years ago...weirdo!) I need to be glad that they are still 5 & 8...that I still have so many precious years ahead. I am loving the baseball games, I am loving watching Andin...who is so confident & bright just excel in so many things. I love watching Cambria read & write her funny stories. There is something so amazing about watching them become people with opinions & relationships....views & experiences! You really start to see them as their own defined person. I just think, Gosh...I really love these little people. They've just changed my life & made me whole. I am so grateful to have them to love & teach & learn from. What a wonderful thing it is to be a mom, sewing these buttons on this little sweater at 1 in the morning. How fun will it be tomorrow when Andin wakes up to show him that I finally put these things back on! To have that first hug of the day, to write that note in the lunchbox, to watch him up to bat at ball practice, watch the kids loving on Mara, or kiss Cambria goodbye before she bravely walks into her classroom, into that world I am not completely a part of. Seeing them still beg to cuddle Devin or I before bed. Just to make all these beautiful little memories all stacked up into their childhood. No pressure. There's just nothing else I'd rather be doing. Nothing else in this whole wide ever that could possibly measure up to that. So even if we're busy, even if it's hard. It still is beautiful & I'd even say magical.....because I want it to be & so it will be. I just have to be the one to make it that way. Bubbles in the car, Elizabeth mitchell or Bob Marley blaring in the car as we sing, "don't worry, about a thing....cause every little thing is gonna be alright!" I love these kids to the moon & onto forever.
